Be Still And Allow The Master To Work

My mind lately has been going a mile a minute.  There seems to be a lot of “things” happening around me, but I just can’t seem to put my finger on what those “things” are exactly.  What I do know, is that I am coming into a season of growing…again.  I have behaviors that I desperately need to break and that God wants to “chisel” off of me.  I’ve spent the last few weeks working out what it is that God is wanting me to do to work on breaking those behaviors.  What keeps coming to the forefront are a few things.

  1. I need to do a Tongue Fast again.
  2. Extremely limit my time on Facebook.
  3. Unplug from things and set strict time limits.
  4. Sit outside, in the quiet, and listen.

I did a Tongue Fast a few years back.  For me, that consisted of not speaking and only writing everything down that I wanted to say.  If I was happy, I had to write it.  If I was mad, I had to write it.  The purpose was to SEE the words that I would normally speak.  By seeing what I would say, it made me think about whether it was really worth saying.  How many words had I wasted because they were hastily spoken, without thought?  It’s time for a refresher of seeing the words again.  James 1:19 tells us, Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, SLOW TO SPEAK, and slow to get angry.  I need to slow my “speak” down.

I need to limit my Facebook and other electronics time drastically.  These things are doing nothing but wasting time and affect my emotions and attitude towards my family and others.  I have a tendency to be reactory when my anxiety about something is triggered.  By constantly having Facebook or other media in my face, I keep myself in that heightened state of anxiety and tension.  Which in turn makes me short with others and quick to get angered.  It leaves my mind in a constant whirl and makes it nearly impossible to find stillness.  Scripture tells us to “Be STILL and KNOW that I am God” (Psalm 46:10).  How is that possible when we leave no room for stillness?  Which leads to my last point…

Nature is very healing.  There is a rawness to it that when we sit and observe, we see that life isn’t as complicated as we make it.  There is a simpleness in the ebb and flow of each day.  That simpleness gets lost by the noise that we allow in.  Most of the excess noise is nothing more than a distraction from the simpleness that God wants with us.  Just to sit and listen.  Only then will the calm & peace come.  It’s time for me to be still.  This process of molding and shaping is going to be painful.  It may be my most painful yet.  I will be forced to face things about myself and my past that I’ve wanted to ignore.  That stillness with God will become more important that anything else.  Only in the stillness with Him will my true healing and change begin.

When was the last time you were able to truly “be still”?  Something to really think about.  =)  Be Blessed!

Division To Friendship

Division.  The act, process, or an instance of separating or keeping apart.  The condition or an instance of being divided in opinion or interest.

Something that has been on my mind lately is how divided we are as a people.  In the world, our country, our families, and even the church.  What is so wrong with actually TRYING to be friends?  Why do we have to search for the similarities and differences in each other?  Why can’t we just see them for people who God has given us as a gift to love?  There is beauty in everybody if we would just actually look for it.  Let’s attempt to move from division to friendship.  We will all benefit from it.

So, as the song below says, will you take my hand and be friends with me?  =)  Be Blessed!

 

Roots

While going through some past posts, I found this speaking to me…again.

 

I had a root canal awhile back.  Great sentence to start with, I know.  I was thinking this morning about the whole idea of a root canal.  The whole intent is to go in and take care of  infection. …

Source: Roots

Conversation With God

“Get up!  It’s time!”

“I know, but I’m scared.”

“Of what?”

“What if I fail?”

“You will at times.  But what if you succeed?”

“That scares me even more.”

“Why?”

“I don’t really know.  I’m afraid of more being expected.  Then what if I can’t do any more?”

“How do you know if you can’t do more if you haven’t even tried to do a little?”

“How do you know that I can?”

“Because, you are my child.  I put into you the things that I knew you would need to do the task that I have given you.  I knew that you would need determination, strength, fire, and audacity.  I also knew that those things would also make you stubborn and hard-nosed if not tempered right.  That my child is the struggle you are having right now.  You are fighting the wrong battle.  You are fighting against what I instilled in you, when in reality I intended you to use that to grab hold of the difficult people who are hurt so badly that only you can reach them.  They will be hard to love because of their hurt, but I know that you are stubborn enough, determined enough, and audacious enough to not give up on them and to guide them to Me.”

“How do you know that?  You’ve seen me!  I lose it over the small things now.”

“Yes, but you have also held on and persevered through the tough, too.  Let go of what you are holding onto that you think is protecting you.  It’s a false wall.  It’s not protecting you.  It’s keeping you from what I have intended for you.”

“But what if I get hurt?”

“That will happen.  Let go of the hurt.”

“What if I fall down?’

“That will happen, too.  You know what I want you to do when that happens?”

“You want me to stand back up.”

“Exactly.  For some reason, the last time you fell, you chose not to get back up.  Not completely.  You allowed yourself to stand just enough to where when something hits you, you easily fall.  I want you to stand completely up and on a solid foundation that only I can give you.  Are you ready?”

“I think so.”

“I asked if you were ready?”

“Yes.  But…”

“No.  No “but”.  When you add that, you are not fully trusting me.  Do you trust me to catch you if you fall?”

“Yyeesss.”

“I sense some hesitation.  I have never left you.  I have been right here waiting for you to take hold of me, ready to help you stand.”

“I know you have.”

“Then what are you waiting for.  Are you ready?”

“Yes.”

“Then stand!  We have a job to do.”

“Yes, Lord.”

 

 

 

The Chance To Start Fresh

Ahh…a new year!  It so refreshing!  I haven’t even bothered writing for awhile since every time I thought I was getting better, I came down with it all over again…and am still trying to get over the “Tennessee Crud” as so I have heard it so eloquiently called.  Needless to say, I have not exercised since September, BUT, I haven’t gained anything!  Even with going through the holidays, I still managed to lose.  Which really does tell me that the issue I’ve had was completely my thyroid.  Such hope this does bring…Sorry…had to Yoda for a second.

New Years has came and everyone is abuzz with their resolutions.  We don’t do them in our house.  I feel like they set you up for failure.  They make you focus too much on what you don’t like about yourself or your life, which isn’t productive. Now, setting goals is another matter.  We haven’t sat down yet and set our family goals, but I have set my personal ones.

  1. Get back on track with walking
  2. Register & complete a 5K
  3. Buckle down and learn Korean (not just sporadic words)
  4. Plant my garden and actually tend to it
  5. Try to put up/can 50% of our food supply
  6. Read the Bible completely through
  7. Read more books
  8. Focus on getting our side business off the ground
  9. Prioritize my time better

I think that’s enough to get me started.  Granted, I have ones that require the help of the hubs, so we’ll just categorize those as family goals.  Anyway you look at it, it’s going to be a great year.

I have already printed my new forms for my Household Notebook and Budget Binder.  I’m working on getting that put back together and organized.  This year though, I am going to get to make a new binder for all the projects for the house we are going/wanting to be working on.  We have a lot of change that will be happening over the next couple of years that will require a lot of planning and budgeting.  One huge thing is Destiny will be graduating this year…not sure if it will be in May or December, but it will be happening.  It’s crazy to think about, but I love new seasons!

So, what are the goals that you have set for this year?  I would love to hear about them!  Be Blessed!  =)

 

My Journey To Health…Did I really just do that!?!

Just excuse my dishoveledness (is that even a word?).  I had just finished walking in a gazillion degree weather and my heart was still racing.

God woke me up yesterday morning at 4 am, wide-eyed, and told me I need to make a vlog and told me the scripture to use.  I didn’t understand it (at 4 in the morning), but I did one I was through.  I had used it before, repeating it over and over with every step I took, when we were hiking.  Have an awesome day!  =)  Be Blessed!

My Journey To Health…Wk 2

WOW!  I have been blogging for a few years now, though not consistently, and I have never gotten as much feedback, emails, or messages as I did with my first post about my health journey.  I had a comment on my last post about how this struggle will be a blessing and a gift.  She was completely right.  God will be able to use this and me to help someone else and to spur them on.  So, I figured that I would write to bring everything completely up to date.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NIV) says, Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

This is my ultimate goal with this.  I am in no position right now to be able to completely walk in obedience.  If He calls me to travel to the mountains in Asia, there is no way I could even think of walking there.  So, my current state henders my ability to function at my best.  THIS WILL CHANGE!  If God calls me, I need to be ready…in ALL aspects.

My starting pic was from May at my sister’s wedding.  I had set a goal to be “skinny” for it and needless to say I failed miserably.  I actually GAINED weight when I was trying to lose it!  I also had started swelling really bad and I joke that I looked like Baymax from Big Hero 6.  Since the wedding, I didn’t really do anything drastic to lose until about 3 weeks ago.  So, what is my starting point?  I topped out at 351.5 lbs.  There it is.  No hiding it!  I do know this though, I have always been on the heavier side weight wise since I had so much muscle mass (I was into sports and such) and I’ve had people tell me that I will show more progress in my measurements than I do in my weight.  They were right.

Well, 3 weeks into eating right and 2 weeks into my thyroid med, here are the numbers:

Starting Weight: 351.5 Lbs

Starting Inches:

Bust: 56

Arms: L 24

R 24

Waste: 55

Hips: 65

Current Weight: 351

Current Inches:

Bust: 49.5

Arms: L 19.5

R 20

Waste: 53

Hips: 61

Total Loss:

Lbs: .5

Inches: 20.5

From now on I will only post my total losses for the week.  Also, my goals.  Whether they are for exercise, diet, or other kind of goal.  I am pleased to say that the goal I set for this week of walking a mile, I hit that the day after my post.  WOOHOO!!!  I actually got 3.2 miles in for the whole day with all my steps.

Well, how about an updated pic!  I had to see for myself if there was a difference since I was feeling like I looked better and I had people saying so…what do you think?!?

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Today is a new day and I will keep going.  Thank you for taking this journey with me.  I hope that it will bring encouragement and motivation for you!  =)  Be Blessed!