Ready For Battle

I’m up, out of bed at 4:30 in the morning.  Why?  I fell, once again, victim to Satan’s tricks.  Why can’t I figure it out when it’s happening?  So, as of right now, he’s still winning since I am losing sleep over it.  The worst part is that I don’t know how to stop believing them.  I mean I “know” how but actually doing it is different.  Mainly because I have realized that they are so engrained into my mind.  I have had the same reactive pattern for so long, it’s really hard to break.  The worse part is I self destruct.  That is, after I annihilate anyone in my path.  Then I feel guilty, stupid and completely embarrassed because I’ve made a total butt of myself and God only knows how much damage I’ve done.  Plus, in my head, I run through all the Scriptures about being a good wife and think of how I’ve blown them.  Which ones?  Oh let’s see.  Proverbs 31:10-12, 28-29, 1 Timothy 3:11…So, I want to completely hide.

So, here is my issue.  At certain times, I lose total self-control.  I don’t deal with criticism very well AT ALL!  Unwarranted criticism tops the list.  I’m even worse when it has to do with someone close to me.  The problem comes when it triggers a domino effect for everything else.  We’re talking my chest gets tight, my hands shake in anger, I get tunnel vision, ect.  It’s fight or flight but I feel trapped and the fight feeling starts to take over.  I can’t be this way.  It’s beneficial to no one.  It not only is damaging to myself but those around me.

It’s more than that though. It’s the lies that I keep falling for. It’s not just the damage I do in the heat of the moment, it’s what I do afterwards that I’m learning is what is most damaging. Here is a rundown of what happens in my head. These are things that I have said, be it out loud or just to myself. “I’m useless. The kids deserve a better mother. You deserve a better wife. I’m fat. It’s hopeless.  I can’t do it. I quit. I’m done. I’m garbage. I’m an absolute waste of time. I’m not good enough. She’s better than me. God hates me. I drag you down.” Now, multiply that by a ton (depending on how big the blunder was) and you have my brain.

The Bible talks about self-control a lot.  Apparently it’s an important trait to have.  It’s not just how you handle yourself in public but with yourself as well.  I’m learning that it’s one that has to be nurtured and grown.  There are many Scriptures that address the issue.  A couple are: He will die for lack of self-control; he will be lost because of his great foolishness (Prov. 5:23).  A person without self-control is like a city with broken-down walls (Prov. 25:28).  Obviously, it’s not a good thing to lack it.  It can do a lot of damage.

That being said, this is what I think is really going on. It seems I’ve been having these triggers a lot over the last few months. As I was thinking tonight I remembered that I had been praying that God would reveal the areas that I needed to start working on. What I had expected Him to do was to just quietly tell me what it was and then He and I could talk about it in private.  Ohhhh no. That is apparently NOT how this growth period is going to work (crap!).  Sitting here (since I have a clear head now), I can say, “BRING IT ON!”  Only good can come of this right???  I’m so thankful for the leadership that God has brought us to sit under.  Even though I’m falling apart, I know that they’ve got my back and are willing to hold me accountable but love me THROUGH the process.  Even though I’m a hot mess right now.  They are tapped in to what God is calling them to do and it shows.  I’m grateful that God has brought them alongside me (us) to help guide this process a long.

We are doing a series right now at church about the Armor of God. How fitting. Honestly, that is the first place that I need to start if I’m going to beat this.  So, how much armor are we to put on?  Ephesians 6:10-17 says,

A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.  

Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil.  

For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.  

Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm.  

Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness.  

For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.  

In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.  

Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.  

As I read through it and chew on it, I come to the realization that I am fighting naked!  It’s like taking a knife to a gun fight.  You can’t go to battle unprepared.  We forget that we are at war.  We talk a lot about God’s love but we need to be talking about the battle before us if we want to win!  And to win we have to make sure that we are tapped into the Source of power and protected with what our God has provided for us to shield ourselves with.  We have to be real with ourselves and acknowledge that we are fighting naked.  If we can’t be real with ourselves, we can’t be real with anybody else and they sure can’t be real with us.

So, now I have to decide if I’m going to continue to cower and run and never get anywhere or am I going to lace up my boots, grab my gear and go head on into the fight before me.  You can only run from yourself (and God) for so long before your tail end (& He) catches up with ya.  It’s time to quit running and start to fight…the right way!

So, who’s with me?  =)  Be blessed!


I’m God’s Snoodle!

Ephesians 4:17-31.  This passage of scripture is going to be my focus for the week.  I had to chance to have lunch with a great mentor.  I guess it really wasn’t a chance as much as made time for.  It was a much-needed talk and accountability.  The scary part was how she managed to repeat nearly word for word something that my husband had told me a few years back.  They were both right.  If I get downright honest with myself, they were right.  Every time I get close or when the anointing falls, I run away and hide.  I am terrified of the greatness that God wants from me.  Don’t get me wrong.  I’m not saying how awesome I am, but when we are walking in obedience and function in God’s will, His greatness will come forth.  It overwhelms me.  When I decide that I’m going to walk in His will completely, the “what if” questions begin.  What if he asks me to talk to someone who is difficult?  What if He wants me to be more vulnerable?  What if He asks me to go into the ugly trenches where it’s dangerous?  What if He wants to change me?  What if He wants me to change my destructive thoughts?  What if He asks me to forgive?  What if He asks me to completely surrender EVERYTHING?  Just what if?

Guess what?  That’s exactly what He’s done.  And of course my first reaction was “Oh, crap!”  So, where do I start to heal and start to rebuild?  I’m starting with this passage.  I’ve added emphasis on a few parts.

Ephesians 4:17-31

17 With the Lord’s authority I say this: Live no longer as the Gentiles do, for they are hopelessly confused. (God is not a God a confusion.)  18 Their minds are full of darkness; they wander far from the life God gives because they have closed their minds and hardened their hearts against him. 19 They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.

20 But that isn’t what you learned about Christ. 21 Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, 22 throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. 23 Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes. 24 Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.

25 So stop telling lies. (This includes the lies that I tell myself)  Let us tell our neighbors the truth, for we are all parts of the same body. 26 And “don’t sin by letting anger control you.” Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 for anger gives a foothold to the devil.

28 If you are a thief, quit stealing. Instead, use your hands for good hard work, and then give generously to others in need. 29 Don’t use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. (I need to apply this one to how I talk to myself!)

30 And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption.

31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior.  (FORGIVE myself & others!  Don’t hang onto baggage!)

Should be pretty easy right?  Just need to remember to take it one step at a time and not try to fix it all overnight.  Today is a new day and a new start.  And the best place to start is to truly forgive myself, repent and choose to see myself the way God sees me.  As a Snoodle!  I need to be the Snoodle God made me to be and not trying to be a different Snoodle.


If you’ve never watched A Snoodles Tale, please do.  I attached a link to a transcript of it.  I have yet to find a simpler way of addressing seeing ourselves the way God sees us.  We are meant to soar, but we can only do that if we are willing to put the wings on that God has given us to use.  Guess I need to go and dig mine out the closet and at least look at them.  They’ve been buried for too long.

So, are you wearing the wings God gave you to wear or do you have them tucked away in the closet too?  Something to think about.  =)  Be Blessed!

The Potter & His Clay

Six years ago today, we had a beautiful little girl.  We named her Faith Elizabeth.  Faith because that is what it took and was going to take to walk the path that God was taking us on.  Elizabeth because we believed and prayed for that child.  Our Valentine’s Day will be forever changed because that is the day that we were induced to have a child that we knew God had taken back home.  Thankfully, labor took long enough so she was born on the 15th.

I had to have a blood transfusion before they would induce me because my overall blood volume in my body was low.  The day they put me in the hospital to have her, it so happened that it was a full moon, so everybody in Louisville was going into labor.  It was interesting to have a doctor come in and tell you that you had to wait to have your child because they had to take the women who had “viable” babies first.  I totally understood that, but it was still unsettling.

A week after Faith was born, I had to go back for a checkup.  This was one of the hardest things I had to do.  Needless to say, there were A LOT of women in for their checkup.  I sat there and listened to some young (late teens) mothers complain about how they had to get up every 3 hours to feed their babies and how tired they were and on and on.  I so badly wanted to point out to them how selfish they were being and how they should be grateful that their child was even alive!  And how having to feed every 3 hours is nothing.  Try doing it every 45 minutes with a premie!  (Hunter was a premie and would eat that way because it wore him out so quickly.  Can you tell I was angry???)  I finally got called back to my room and my doctor had been paged for a delivery so I had to wait.  Down the hall they had a mother having a Fetal Stress Test done, so for an hour I got to sit and listen to a baby’s heartbeat.  I left the doctor’s office broken and hurt.  I went and bought my first pack of cigarettes in 5 years.  In my mind, at that moment, it was either smoking or drinking.  So, I chose the lesser of the two evils, so to speak.

Over the next few months, I grew more and more bitter the more I thought about it and the things that I witnessed around me with new mothers.  I couldn’t understand WHY God would allow drug addicts, young teens, irresponsible people (the list goes on and on) to have babies.  I can honestly say that I was so angry at God that I hated Him.  I was mad at myself and Tevis.  Why was I having to go through this?  What good could possibly come from this?  I was at a pivotal point in my life where I had to make some decisions about the direction I was going to go.

It all came down to pottery.  Potters have to do a lot of work to the clay to make it into what they are trying to shape.  Pottery is made by forming a clay body into objects of a required shape and heating them to high temperatures in a kiln which removes all the water from the clay, which induces reactions that lead to permanent changes including increasing their strength and hardening and setting their shape.  Prior to some shaping processes, clay must be prepared. Kneading helps to ensure an even moisture content throughout the body. Air trapped within the clay body needs to be removed. This is called de-airing and can be accomplished by a machine called a vacuum pug or manually by wedging. Wedging can also help produce an even moisture content. Once a clay body has been kneaded and de-aired or wedged, it is shaped by a variety of techniques. After shaping it is dried and then fired. (Wikipedia)  

I was (am) a very bull-headed person.  I don’t like being moved from my comfort zone.  I like to be in control of things.  It gives me security.  What I learned through Faith’s death was I needed to be refined.  And for stubborn pieces of clay, they take some extra work.  Extra HARD work, because they are difficult.  They have to be broken down to be able to build back up.  Once they are finally workable and are shaped, the piece is then fired at temperatures between 1800 – 2500 *F.  That’s hot!  The product that you get in the end is one of treasure and durability.  But it has to go through the entire process to get that way.

I can now say that I am thankful for the trial that we got to walk through with her death.  The bitterness has subsided and I’m no longer angry at God.  I still have those nagging questions as to why us but I understand a little better for what purpose.  I have had the opportunity to talk with other women who have just lost or are currently walking through that same hurricane.  He gives us each our own storm so we can bring hope to others going through the same thing.  Though I am struggling this year with it, I know the good that can come of it.  I just have to let the process continue and trust that in the end, the piece of pottery I will become will be something worth treasuring.  The storms come and the storms go but God’s loving hand is always their even though we may not feel it at that moment.  He’s crying when we cry, laughing when we laugh and He’s still always there, cheering us on.  “Take another step my child.  Trust me.  Take another step.”  So, on I walk.  Praising Him through each storm He sends.  =)  Be Blessed!

Worship- Follow David’s Lead

I’ve been wanting to do a series on worship for awhile.  Yet, right now I don’t have the time to devote to a post every single day.  That reason will be explained in another post on a different day, but, I came across this article and found that it was VERY well written.  Enjoy.  Be Blessed!  =)


Nine Expressions of Worship

 by Stephen M. Newman

Pastor of Worship and Arts

August 26, 2010


David’s Lead

 It’s captivating to read through the Psalms and see the variety of ways in which David worshiped. When we pause to ask ourselves what we are doing during our worship times today, we are often faced with several questions. How do we worship? What are we able to do and still be reverent before the Lord? What is God’s desire for our worship? Does God give us the right to pick and choose how we worship? 


The Psalms have given us nine different expressions of worship, and these expressions stem from David’s desire to worship the Lord wholeheartedly and without reservation. Oddly enough, these expressions are not foreign to us, but we fail to practice them in our corporate worship for one reason or another. 


Listed below are the nine expressions of worship that we will focus on in this article. They can be broken down further into three physical expressions. 

The Spoken Voice 


1. Speaking – 

Psalm 34:1 says, “I will extol the Lord at all times; his praise will always 

be on my lips.” 


2. Shouting – Psalm 

27:6 says, “Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround 

me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will 

sing and make music to the Lord.” 


3. Singing – Psalm 

47:6 says, “Sing praises to God, sing praises to our King, sing praises.” 

Our Posture 


1. Bowing – 

Psalm 95:6 says, “Come let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before 

the Lord our Maker.” 


2. Standing 

– Psalm 119:120 says, “My flesh trembles in fear of you; I stand 

in awe of your laws.” 


3. Dancing 

– Psalm 149:3 says, “Let them praise his name with dancing and make 

music to him with tambourine and harp.” 

Our Hands 


1. Playing Instruments 

– Psalm 33:2, 3 says, “Praise the Lord with the harp; make music to him 

on the ten stringed lyre. Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, 

and shout for joy.” 


2. Clapping 

– Psalm 47:1 says, “Clap your hands, all you nations; shout to God 

with cries of joy.” 


3. Lifting Hands 

– Psalm 63:4 says, “I will praise you as long as I live, and in your 

name I will lift up my hands.”

 None of these expressions of worship are foreign to us. They may be foreign to our present worship experiences, but not to our culture. When there is a wedding and the bridal march begins, what do people do without thinking twice? They stand in honor of the bride and groom on this special day. When a man asks a woman to marry him, he gets on his knee to propose to her. Why? Because he wants to show her that this is an important event and that she is being honored as someone very special. Dancing plays a part of our culture in that it expresses celebration, intimacy, and individuality. We clap with enthusiasm for everything that pleases us. Musicians will play their instruments for hours on end with no one listening. Speaking doesn’t need to be mentioned at all. Have you ever been to a ball game where the parents of the players were present? If so, you’ve experienced shouting at it’s best. Singing is done by the talented and untalented alike, and is often done in cars, showers, and on stage. We are a musical people. Lastly, we look at lifted hands. In sporting events or competitions we see this quite often. Whenever a player scores a basket or touchdown the hands go up. It a natural response to an amazing task performed. 

 Why share all this? We know it, right? Yet, we fail to exercise all these in public worship. David used these expressions because he wanted to worship God with his entire being. His heart was to worship the Lord with everything he had, and he held nothing back in his worship. He wanted to share with us his heart and desire to worship, and he wanted us to enjoy pleasing the Lord through God’s creation…our bodies and souls. 

 What else can we learn from David? He not only practiced these expressions regularly, he didn’t really care what others thought about it. Even his own wife thought he was nuts and yet, God thought enough of it to call him “a man after His own heart”. Who is our audience? Who is it that we are trying to please in worship? It better be God. Is He pleased with our worship? I hope He is with mine. 

 I challenge you to seek the Lord in these expressions. Ask Him what He would have you do in your times of worship. Is your heart moved to dance before the Lord and yet you choose to sit? Are you moved to get on your face before the Lord and yet stand because you are afraid of what the person next to you will say? Remember worship is not about you, and it’s not about imitating your neighbor. It’s about letting the Lord lead you to worship Him in a manner that He desires and that we need. What benefit could we possibly gain from kneeling before the Lord? How about humility? What could be gained from shouting to the Lord? How about boldness to speak His name in public? What could we learn about lifting our hands to the Lord? How about submission to Him? James 4:6 tells us, “But He gives us more grace. That is why the scripture says: God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.'” 

 Let us always seek to grow in our worship to the Lord. May we ever allow His spirit to move in us as He directs our actions and responses in worship. After all, it’s about Him and for Him. What we receive is a heart of humility, grace, and reverence before the God who saved us from sin to be His children forever.

Conveniently Inconvenienced

Note: This is a previous post that I am transferring over here to my new blog.  =)

I have come to realize though that modern conveniences are a pain in the tookus because they are just that…conveniences.  And conveniences are only convenient until they require effort.  I am thankful for them though.  Our water heater bit the dust.  We replaced the thermostat (mainly because it TOTALLY melted) and the bottom element.  OH YEAH (we thought), we have hot water again!  So, I got up this morning and……nope.  No hot water.  The ol’ girl doesn’t have anything left in her.  So, we have to install a new one (which I’m hoping they will come to do by this weekend).  This is on top of a bunch of other things that seem to have wanted to stop working all at the same time.  Tevis informed me today that this gives us a chance to experience the old days, sorta, since we have to get the water from the tub (kitchen faucet stem is full of sediment) and boil it on the stove and then put it in the tub for a bath or the sink to wash dishes.  Not that they went to the tub to fetch water…but you get the point.  Mind you that I TOTALLY understand the whole roughin’ it mentality.  We lived without hot water for 6 months before.  I am thankful for what we have though.  What a blessing it is to just have shelter from the rain and wind.  We get to where we believe that we HAVE to have all these modern things.  Why?  Sure, us having to boil water requires more effort than just turning on the faucet, but we still have running water.  We still have a way to heat it.  It just takes a little more time.

God is so amazing in how he provides and cares for us.  He is amazing in how he allows inconveniences to happen in our life that teach us about perseverance and trust and some good ol’ fashioned hard work.  These are the times that we find what we are made of.  How strong our faith is.  How strong our trust in Him is.  What our foundation really consists of.  Too often we try to handle everything on our own.  By doing that, we run out of steam.  We get burned out.  We become distressed and we start to become depressed.  We are relying too much on our own strength.  Why is it so hard for us to just lean back into God’s big arms and let Him carry us through the muck?  We are such a rushed society.  I don’t think we really know how to just stop and let God do what God wants to do.  God is at work all around us, but we have to be able to slow ourselves down enough to see the work He is doing.  The whole water heater thing is a lesson for me.  I have to take the time to fill the stockpot.  I have to take the time to heat it on the stove.  And I’m having to take baths right now instead of a shower.  I’ve had to slow down.  And during the waiting in all that I find myself talking to Him.  What else do I have to do?  Perfect time as any so I’m taking advantage of it.  Maybe you can find those moments of “inconvenience” as a convenient time to talk with God.  =)

Submission To Authority

I’ve been wrestling with something as of late.  I have been noticing more, and am guilty of, the non-submission to the authorities that God has placed over us.    God has been convicting me of this over the past month or so.

The Bible is chocked full of passages about submitting to authority.  Romans 13:1 says, Everyone must submit to governing authorities.  For all authority comes from God, and those in positions of authority have been placed there by God (emphasis mine).  He is not just speaking of our government leaders (police, firemen, president, etc), but he is speaking of authority in our homes and in our churches also.  When we do not submit to those that God places in authority, we are not submitting to God.  I love the quote from Eddie Rasnake.  It says, “When I submit to the leaders God places over me, I do so not in trust of them, but in trust of God who placed them.  My trust is not that they will always make the right decisions, but rather, that God is able to work in their hearts and in my life even in their mistakes.  The bottom line of submission on every level is not “Can I trust this leader,” but “Can I trust God to work in, through and in spite of this leader?”  Our lack of trust in someone does not give us an excuse to not respect them or submit to their God-given authority as a leader.  Our homes, anymore, are filled with children who have no respect for their authorities or elders.  1 Peter 5:5 says, In the same way, you younger men must accept the authority of the elders.  And all of you, serve each other in humility, for “God opposes the proud but favors the humble.”  The sad thing is is that normally the parents are not teaching them to because they themselves have no respect for their elders.  Not to mention the lack of humility.  We have become a very self-serving nation where chaos and confusion run amuck.

This attitude is even infiltrating our churches in how we submit to our pastors and ministry leaders.  I love John MacArthur.  He is an awesome author and teacher.  He says this about the lack of submission to authority, “In many churches today the congregation rules the leaders. This sort of government is foreign to the New Testament.” and “It is a serious (and all too common) thing for stubborn, self-willed people in church congregations to rob their pastors of the joy God intends faithful pastors to have. Failure to properly submit brings grief rather than joy to pastors, and consequently brings grief and displeasure to God, who sends them to minister over us. Grief (stenazontes) means an inner, unexpected groaning.  It is a grief often known only to the pastor, his family, and to God. Because lack of submission is an expression of selfishness and self-will, unruly congregations are not likely to be aware of, or care about, the sorrow they cause their pastor and other leaders (Heb. 13:17).”  The scripture that he has written there (Heb. 13:17) says, “Obey your spiritual leaders, and do what they say.  Their work is to watch over your souls, and they are accountable to God.  Give them reason to do this with joy and not with sorrow.  That would certainly not be for your benefit.”  Those in leadership are held to a higher accountability because of the authority that God has given them.  John R. Muether says, “Contrary to contemporary wisdom, the Bible teaches that one cannot yield to the authority of the Word without submitting to the authority of the church.”  Now, if the authority over us is conducting themselves in an non-Biblical manner (see Exodus 20:1-17 & 1 Timothy 3:1-13), that is different.  But if the issue that we have with submitting is more about what we want and is selfishly driven, then WE need to be the one held to accountability.  If it is offense or hurt that is causing our unsubmission, then we need to find the root of the offense and dig it out.  Why would the world be willing to submit to God’s authority if the example from the church today isn’t one of submission?  A “free-for-all” mentality within the body, where everybody has a say in everything, is a breeding ground for chaos.  It’s the “I want, I want, I want” monster.  It’s the same thing that the world says anymore, “I want more of this.  It will make ME happy.”  James 3:16 says, for wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.  Something to chew on.  Romans 12:2 says, Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.  Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.  We are to stand apart from the world.  It has gotten to where the lines are blurred between the two.  When we seek to please people (ourselves) more than we are seeking to please God, that is when the downward spiral begins.  We might as well kick the door open and lay out a welcome mat for Satan.  Submitting to our authorities isn’t a bad thing.  God places them there for OUR benefit.  We need to strive to build our leaders up instead of tearing them down by our selfish demands.  If we can change our attitude of submission within the church, then that will carry over into the home.  It can be done if we are willing to be honest with ourselves and willing to be held accountable.

My goal is to start taking a daily inventory of my attitudes for the day.  Did I submit to those God places over me or was I combative and difficult?  I have some apologies that I need to be making and yes, I am going to have to come to like crow, cause I have several of them to eat (so to speak).  It’s all part of the growth process.  So, let me ask you.  How submissive have you been to those God has placed in authority over you?  =)  Be Blessed!


I had a root canal awhile back.  Great sentence to start with, I know.  I was thinking this morning about the whole idea of a root canal.  The whole intent is to go in and take care of  infection.  There is, of course, a parallel.
So often we have an infection of some sort in our character.  We struggle with something in some way.  And so often we only use bandages to cover it up but we never get to the ROOT of the problem.  Over time it grows more and more infectious.  Like a cancer.  “Just ignore the elephant in the corner” we tell ourselves.  Why are we so afraid to really dig in and deal with our character issues?  There are 8 character qualities that stand out the most that people struggle with.  They are humility, confidence, courage, self-control, patience, contentment, generosity, and perseverance.  Those are the areas that God is wanting to bring to the surface and correct.  It is so much easier to focus on other peoples issues and problems and not our own.  But by doing so, we negate correcting anything.  A friend of ours said that he heard a saying once that went something like this, “So often we judge ourselves by our intentions and others by their actions.”  If we would see other by their intentions as we see ourselves, we may see things differently.  We normally, though, have infections in our heart that make it hard to look past the actions.  By not letting God reveal to us the areas he is wanting us to work on, we never grow ourselves in our walk.  Not only do we not get to the root of the problem, we show how shallowly we are rooted in our walk.  Matthew 13:21 says, But since he has not root, he lasts only a short time.  When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, he quickly falls away.  We are to be rooted in the Word.  By digging into God’s word and what He has to say, it gives him the opportunity to reveal the root problems that cause our outbursts, anger, hatred, bitterness, envy, hostility, impatience.  The list goes on and on.  We need to have a strong foundation to stand upon when those times come that test and try us and can trigger those character issues that God is wanting us to deal with.
I got a book a few years ago.  I never did get through it all since I lost the book.  I found it again when we moved.  I loved it.  At least the part that I was able to get through.  I wish I would have made it through it all.  I will start it again.  It was called Character Makeover by Katie Brazelton & Shelley Leith.  I highly suggest it.  It is a 40 day journey of honesty with yourself.  If you can’t be honest with yourself, how can you be honest with anybody else?  Be real and get to the root of the problem.  It will be totally worth it in the end.  And make sure that God is the one guiding you through the process.  =)  Be Blessed!