Just for today…

Woman

 

What is stopping you from being happy and carefree?  What is blocking you from finding joy in all things?  Will you allow yourself to be happy and joyful?  Just for today?  Try it!  It may be contagious!

=) Be Blessed!

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Division To Friendship

Division.  The act, process, or an instance of separating or keeping apart.  The condition or an instance of being divided in opinion or interest.

Something that has been on my mind lately is how divided we are as a people.  In the world, our country, our families, and even the church.  What is so wrong with actually TRYING to be friends?  Why do we have to search for the similarities and differences in each other?  Why can’t we just see them for people who God has given us as a gift to love?  There is beauty in everybody if we would just actually look for it.  Let’s attempt to move from division to friendship.  We will all benefit from it.

So, as the song below says, will you take my hand and be friends with me?  =)  Be Blessed!

 

Roots

While going through some past posts, I found this speaking to me…again.

 

I had a root canal awhile back.  Great sentence to start with, I know.  I was thinking this morning about the whole idea of a root canal.  The whole intent is to go in and take care of  infection. …

Source: Roots

Conversation With God

“Get up!  It’s time!”

“I know, but I’m scared.”

“Of what?”

“What if I fail?”

“You will at times.  But what if you succeed?”

“That scares me even more.”

“Why?”

“I don’t really know.  I’m afraid of more being expected.  Then what if I can’t do any more?”

“How do you know if you can’t do more if you haven’t even tried to do a little?”

“How do you know that I can?”

“Because, you are my child.  I put into you the things that I knew you would need to do the task that I have given you.  I knew that you would need determination, strength, fire, and audacity.  I also knew that those things would also make you stubborn and hard-nosed if not tempered right.  That my child is the struggle you are having right now.  You are fighting the wrong battle.  You are fighting against what I instilled in you, when in reality I intended you to use that to grab hold of the difficult people who are hurt so badly that only you can reach them.  They will be hard to love because of their hurt, but I know that you are stubborn enough, determined enough, and audacious enough to not give up on them and to guide them to Me.”

“How do you know that?  You’ve seen me!  I lose it over the small things now.”

“Yes, but you have also held on and persevered through the tough, too.  Let go of what you are holding onto that you think is protecting you.  It’s a false wall.  It’s not protecting you.  It’s keeping you from what I have intended for you.”

“But what if I get hurt?”

“That will happen.  Let go of the hurt.”

“What if I fall down?’

“That will happen, too.  You know what I want you to do when that happens?”

“You want me to stand back up.”

“Exactly.  For some reason, the last time you fell, you chose not to get back up.  Not completely.  You allowed yourself to stand just enough to where when something hits you, you easily fall.  I want you to stand completely up and on a solid foundation that only I can give you.  Are you ready?”

“I think so.”

“I asked if you were ready?”

“Yes.  But…”

“No.  No “but”.  When you add that, you are not fully trusting me.  Do you trust me to catch you if you fall?”

“Yyeesss.”

“I sense some hesitation.  I have never left you.  I have been right here waiting for you to take hold of me, ready to help you stand.”

“I know you have.”

“Then what are you waiting for.  Are you ready?”

“Yes.”

“Then stand!  We have a job to do.”

“Yes, Lord.”

 

 

 

The Chance To Start Fresh

Ahh…a new year!  It so refreshing!  I haven’t even bothered writing for awhile since every time I thought I was getting better, I came down with it all over again…and am still trying to get over the “Tennessee Crud” as so I have heard it so eloquiently called.  Needless to say, I have not exercised since September, BUT, I haven’t gained anything!  Even with going through the holidays, I still managed to lose.  Which really does tell me that the issue I’ve had was completely my thyroid.  Such hope this does bring…Sorry…had to Yoda for a second.

New Years has came and everyone is abuzz with their resolutions.  We don’t do them in our house.  I feel like they set you up for failure.  They make you focus too much on what you don’t like about yourself or your life, which isn’t productive. Now, setting goals is another matter.  We haven’t sat down yet and set our family goals, but I have set my personal ones.

  1. Get back on track with walking
  2. Register & complete a 5K
  3. Buckle down and learn Korean (not just sporadic words)
  4. Plant my garden and actually tend to it
  5. Try to put up/can 50% of our food supply
  6. Read the Bible completely through
  7. Read more books
  8. Focus on getting our side business off the ground
  9. Prioritize my time better

I think that’s enough to get me started.  Granted, I have ones that require the help of the hubs, so we’ll just categorize those as family goals.  Anyway you look at it, it’s going to be a great year.

I have already printed my new forms for my Household Notebook and Budget Binder.  I’m working on getting that put back together and organized.  This year though, I am going to get to make a new binder for all the projects for the house we are going/wanting to be working on.  We have a lot of change that will be happening over the next couple of years that will require a lot of planning and budgeting.  One huge thing is Destiny will be graduating this year…not sure if it will be in May or December, but it will be happening.  It’s crazy to think about, but I love new seasons!

So, what are the goals that you have set for this year?  I would love to hear about them!  Be Blessed!  =)

 

My Journey To Health…Weekly Update 14 &15 (I’m On The Mend)

I know, I know.  I didn’t post last week.  I promise I have a valid reason.  A month ago I developed a cough that progressively got worse.  I’ve just been really sick and I can honestly say, I haven’t been this sick in a LONG time.  Two weeks ago I finally called the doctor.  Come to find out I had a wonderfully established case of bronchitis, pneumonia in my left lung and starting in my right, and sinusitis.  He put me on an antibiotic, breathing treatments, and a steroid (forget weighing in).  After a few days, I wasn’t really getting any better and the cough had gotten worse.  I ended up catching something else too and Thursday night I was hit with chills and a fever and did nothing but cough my head off for the next 3 days (mainly at night).  We’re thinking that Tevis might have brought something home and since I was already weak, I picked it up.  But, I’m finally on the mend (I believe).  I still have a cough, but it’s nothing like it was.  Can’t talk a whole lot cause it triggers it, but I’m hoping that gets better over the next few days.

Anyway, I haven’t even bothered with weighing or measuring and honestly the only workout I have been able to do is cough (which I am counting!)  You use a TON of muscles when you do that and if they are sore, then it’s been a good workout!  At least that’s what I’m claiming.

So I haven’t given up or quit.  Just had a little detour.  Just say a little prayer for me to really kick this.  I missed church for the last 2 weeks and I’m not singing this week either because I can’t even really talk without coughing much less sing.  Even though I have nothing really to report, I still want to leave you with a bit of encouragement,.

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Sometimes we get so caught up in what we can see happening or not and we want things to happen fast.  Why do you think that we have all these fad diets and diet pills that can make you look like a bikini model in 2 days?!?  Every day.  Every single day we are getting better.  Every step is one step closer.  Just keep striving.  You’ll get there.  Even with the little detours on the path.  =)  Be Blessed!

My Journey To Health…Week 13 Update (He’s Our Daddy!)

Last week I was busy having a pity party for myself.  Figured out that the UGH feeling was coming from me incorporating sweet tea back into my diet.  I don’t drink it regularly and it’s always a half-cut, but when I am out running errands and…well you know how Walmart makes you thirsty.  Anyway, I’ve said it before.  I CAN’T HAVE SUGAR.  Even if I cut down on it.  That eliminates 99.99999% of all food on the market (not including fresh veg and fruits).  No wonder people are always sick.  Sugar is legal crack!  Keep them addicted, keep getting their money.  Stop poisoning our people!  *Jumps off soapbox*

Anyway, I was saying how I felt trapped by not being able to sway even the slightest amount from eating better.  I had a good friend who reminded me that I need to be reminding myself of “who my daddy was” when I feel trapped.  She sent me this video:

I remember back when I started this I had said that the majority of this journey was going to be mental.  I am at the mental part.  The beginning was adrenalin.  Now is where the rubber hits the road. Great things never come from comfort zones!  Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results.  To have permanent change, I must have REAL change.  Not just physically, but mentally.  Ephesians 4:23 says, Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.

I’m a thinker and I tend to mull things over and over and over and over and…well, you get the point.  I lose sleep over my brain. Mentally is exactly where satan is going to attack me.  It reminds me of when Professor Snape is training Harry Potter to be strong mentally so that Voldermort can’t get into his thoughts.  “Control your emotions.  Descipline your mind.”  I’m including that scene in case you want to watch.

I need a strong mind.  I need to keep going but not on my strength alone.  I have to say that I think I’ve been trying to do a lot of this on my own.  Everyday I need to get up and put on a conjoined twin jacket and take another step.  I can’t successfully go where God isn’t. So often it isn’t he that has moved but I.  My road is extremely winding and hilly.  I can see Him walking on the easier path and I, like an ADD child, just going “oh look a butterfly!” or “Oh look a squirrel” and running off.  And all the while he is still just walking straight, yet he slows his pace to be able to be exactly where he needs to be when I return onto the His path.  We are never really adults.  We are just bigger kids.  Still learning.  Still exploring.  Still thinking that we know it all.  When in reality, we are still just His children whom he is trying to protect and guide and to train up for the battle ahead.

So, I say all that to really say this.  Yes, I had a bad week.  Yes, I have had a few bad weeks.  I can’t let that be the end all.  In reality all it is is just an ADD moment on my path.  But it is in those moments that Satan can (and will) jump into your head and fill it with all kinds of junk and play with your emotions and torment you with you fears.  We have to block him.  We have to fill our minds with the truths of God and what He says we are.  We have to walk in the truth of WHO HE IS!  That He’s our daddy!  And so often we really don’t know who He is because we haven’t taken the time to REALLY know Him.  He needs to become our conjoined twin.  Why do we make that so hard?  Stop paying attention to the shiny object that’s being dangled in front of you as a distraction and start paying attention to the rock that you are.  Take the time to let God polish and shine and tenderly care for it and you will turn into a true gem.  =)  Be Blessed!

PS- I know I was just all over the map there, but I need to tell you my updates.  I did lose poundage but no inches.  So, it’s still a win.  So I am down 43 lbs since the end of July.  =)

New Starting Weight: 342

Est. Heaviest: 365

Current Weight: 322

Total inches lost: 34