New Creation

Needed to re-read this since I totally lost it last night.  We started AIT (Auditory Integration Therapy) yesterday for Hunter and it is taking a lot out of me.  All the driving, time involved and wrestling with him takes it out of you.  He is very disorganized right now in how he handles himself, which is a result of the intensiveness of having his brain retrained.  Needless to say, I was wore out and lacked a TON of self-control.

Today I have really struggled with myself.  I have really felt bad on nearly everything about myself.  Tevis and I were talking and I just started listing everything that I didn’t like about myself, everything that I feel I have failed at, etc, etc…  I started ranting about failing at homeschooling, failing at keeping up with the house, failing at being a good wife, being overweight…yada yada yada.  You get the point.  I started crying about wanting to have a counter like the ones in the model homes where they have just a papertowel holder and a few canisters on them.  Why I was so focused on that, who knows.  Tevis just laughed at me and said “what home do you know of that is like that?”  I said, “Peoples!”  That’s all I could come up with.  In my head that’s the way everybody’s house is.

I think the main thing that gets me down is that I don’t live up to my own expectations.  I have this image in my head of what I want our house, family and life to be like.  I like the order of things.  Where everything runs smoothly, the kids love each other and don’t fight.  There are days where it straight up hits me that we are no where close to that image and it really bothers me and I dont’ know how to fix it.  But so often that image that I want to live up to is really nothing but a comparison of someone else, of what I THINK their life is like.  I’m craving to be like someone else because their grass is greener.  But, I’m not seeing myself or our family through God’s eyes.  How easy it is for Satan to weasel his way into our minds and to plant these little thoughts that really can wreak havoc on us.  What I need to do is go and pull out my paper that has all the things that God says I am, and read them.  I need to dig in and stand on THAT truth instead of Satan’s lies.  I have to admit though, it is really hard to change your way of thinking when you have let negative thinking become some a habit.  Especially when it’s about yourself.  But we are to have a renewed mind.  And I need to remember that I am a new creation in Christ and so are you!  =)  Be Blessed!


Conveniently Inconvenienced

Note: This is a previous post that I am transferring over here to my new blog.  =)

I have come to realize though that modern conveniences are a pain in the tookus because they are just that…conveniences.  And conveniences are only convenient until they require effort.  I am thankful for them though.  Our water heater bit the dust.  We replaced the thermostat (mainly because it TOTALLY melted) and the bottom element.  OH YEAH (we thought), we have hot water again!  So, I got up this morning and……nope.  No hot water.  The ol’ girl doesn’t have anything left in her.  So, we have to install a new one (which I’m hoping they will come to do by this weekend).  This is on top of a bunch of other things that seem to have wanted to stop working all at the same time.  Tevis informed me today that this gives us a chance to experience the old days, sorta, since we have to get the water from the tub (kitchen faucet stem is full of sediment) and boil it on the stove and then put it in the tub for a bath or the sink to wash dishes.  Not that they went to the tub to fetch water…but you get the point.  Mind you that I TOTALLY understand the whole roughin’ it mentality.  We lived without hot water for 6 months before.  I am thankful for what we have though.  What a blessing it is to just have shelter from the rain and wind.  We get to where we believe that we HAVE to have all these modern things.  Why?  Sure, us having to boil water requires more effort than just turning on the faucet, but we still have running water.  We still have a way to heat it.  It just takes a little more time.

God is so amazing in how he provides and cares for us.  He is amazing in how he allows inconveniences to happen in our life that teach us about perseverance and trust and some good ol’ fashioned hard work.  These are the times that we find what we are made of.  How strong our faith is.  How strong our trust in Him is.  What our foundation really consists of.  Too often we try to handle everything on our own.  By doing that, we run out of steam.  We get burned out.  We become distressed and we start to become depressed.  We are relying too much on our own strength.  Why is it so hard for us to just lean back into God’s big arms and let Him carry us through the muck?  We are such a rushed society.  I don’t think we really know how to just stop and let God do what God wants to do.  God is at work all around us, but we have to be able to slow ourselves down enough to see the work He is doing.  The whole water heater thing is a lesson for me.  I have to take the time to fill the stockpot.  I have to take the time to heat it on the stove.  And I’m having to take baths right now instead of a shower.  I’ve had to slow down.  And during the waiting in all that I find myself talking to Him.  What else do I have to do?  Perfect time as any so I’m taking advantage of it.  Maybe you can find those moments of “inconvenience” as a convenient time to talk with God.  =)

The Joyful Help Meet

To continue on the topic of the Help Meet from yesterday, I thought I would post a past writing.  I strongly encourage you to get this book and read it.  It was definitely an eye opener and has been a huge help in our family.  =)

I’ve been reading this book called Created To Be His Help Meet by Debi Pearl.  I will tell you now that if you are a supporter of the feminist movement, you will not like this book.  I have to say though, that I have LOVED it so far.  It is amazing how far off the path we have gotten as far as our divine calling as women/wives.

What is so great about it is that it really gets to the heart of our role as wives.  We set the tone of our homes.  I think we often forget that.  We have also become discontented with so many things that we often lose our joy.
I just got done covering the chapter on joy.  At the end of it, it has a page for reflection.  This was a kick in the pants for me.  “Joy is a fruit of the Spirit.  If you are a child of God, joy will be a visible reality in your life.”  It goes on to ask 7 questions:

1) Where does joy start?
2) Have I been discontent about my lot in life?  Am I, on occasion, a “poor-me” person?
3) Do I verbally show thanksgiving every day?
4) Do I daily remember to thank God for my husband?
5) Would my friends describe me as joyful, thankful and content?
6) How can I add practicing joy and thanksgiving to my life?
7) Am I willing to lay down my grievance toward my husband for the hope of a heavenly marriage?

Like I said, it was a kick in the pants.  We were created to be his help meet.  We are equipped in every way to be his helper.  Being thankful results in true joy.  It is a beauty that is far above looks.  It is something that men see.  You will shine.  What a blessing it is to have a joyful wife.  By being joyful you will learn that the things that bugged you before are far less.  Being thankful in all things leads to the joyfulness in them also.

Galatians 5:22-23 says, But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control.  Against such things there is no law.  The Spirit produces these character traits that are found in the nature of Christ.  They are the by-products of Christ’s control- we can’t obtain them by “trying” to get them without His help.  We must know Him, love Him, remember Him, and imitate Him.  By doing so, we will be fulfilling our purpose of our husband’s help meet, the way God intended us to do.  With all the fruit’s of the Spirit.

We were a gift to man.  Don’t let that go to your head.  We were a gift to complete him.  To help.  When we submit to our husbands, we are really submitting to the authority of God.  The word submit has gotten a bad wrap.  It’s not meaning for your husband to walk all over you.  “God made you to be a help meet to your husband so you can bolster him, making him more productive and efficient at whatever he chooses to do.  You are not on the board of directors with an equal vote.  You have no authority to set the agenda.  But if he can trust you, he will make you his closest advisor, his confidante, his press secretary, his head of state, his vice-president, his ambassador, his public relations expert, maybe even his speech writer- all at his discretion.”  He is the head of the house for a reason.  Let him lead.  And be joyful in letting him do that.  Don’t point out what all he did wrong.  He’s well aware.  Let God do the work in him that He plans to do.  By being the wife God created you to be, you will be aiding in God’s work.  Encourage and cheer him on.  He’s under enough pressure outside the home.  We should be his biggest fan and by fulfilling our divine calling as wives, we will be what Proverbs 12:4 says we will be.  “A virtuous woman is a crown to her husband.”  We would be such a blessing to our husband that he “would receive honor from other men as they admire and praise his handy wife”.  How awesome would that be!
So be the help meet God designed you to be.  Even if it’s hard to do.  Every little step counts.  Find the things to be thankful about and be joyous!  =)  Be Blessed!

They Did WHAT?

Gossip.  I know that right now someone’s name floated right through your head.  You know the one.  The person who ALWAYS knows what’s going on with so-and-so and just has to tell you about it.  There is the obvious ways of gossip, but there are the not so obvious ways too.  One way I think this comes in the form of, is by complaining about others.  I’m guilty of this.  Especially if I feel I have been wronged.  It doesn’t help at all in reality.  If you really think about it, you can’t really complain about someone/somthing without gossiping about what they did.  Normally this can create a lot of problems.  Proverbs 25:23 says, As surely as the North wind brings rain, so a gossiping tongue causes anger.  How much of our complaining would stop if we viewed it through the eyes of it being gossip?  How much of the fighting that goes on between people is caused by gossip?

Proverbs 26:20 says, Fire goes out without wood, and quarrels disappear when gossip stops.  If we didn’t gossip and run our mouths, there would be A LOT less fighting.  So, much discord is sown with gossip.  Are we to build each other up or tear each other down?  There is no edification in it.  Romans 14:9 says, Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification.  We are to do what is in the best interest of others.  Talking about everybody’s dirt isn’t in their best interest.  No wonder everybody is afraid to be real.  They are afraid of being burned at the stake for not being perfect.  God forbid!  How can we ever heal, grow and mature as Christians if we’re never real and HELP each other with our junk?

So often ministry leaders are held at a higher standard than anybody else.  But, I’m going to fill you in on something, we are a mess just like everybody else.  We are not superhuman.  Our children are not perfect.  We have struggles daily and we are not immune to them.  That’s what is so interesting about having a special needs child.  Our junk is out there for everybody to see.  There is no hiding it.  Hunter makes sure that you know that we don’t have it together.  I am thankful for that.  Yet, at the same time horrified.  I get tired of being the incoming circus.  To be honest, I feel that my biggest asset is that we are out there; exposed per say.  How we deal with things and how we handle things are sometimes our biggest witness to others.  It’s a big relief to me.  It’s hard trying to fit yourself into some mold that people expect you to be in.  Hunter keeps us from fitting into that mold.  Thank God!

So many times we have such a low self image that to make ourselves feel better, we tear others down by gossiping.  But, by remembering that we never truly know the whole story of what is going on in someone’s life, it will help in keeping the gossip down.  Instead of talking to everybody else about what’s going on in someones life, go and talk to them about it.  Encourage them.  Hebrews 10:24-25 says, Let us think of way to motivate one another to acts of love and good works.  And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.

Oh the peace to be had.  So, the next time you speak about someone, try something uplifting about them.  Focus on the positives.  If we judge people by their intentions instead of their actions, we may see them in a whole new light.  =)  Be Blessed