The Chance To Start Fresh

Ahh…a new year!  It so refreshing!  I haven’t even bothered writing for awhile since every time I thought I was getting better, I came down with it all over again…and am still trying to get over the “Tennessee Crud” as so I have heard it so eloquiently called.  Needless to say, I have not exercised since September, BUT, I haven’t gained anything!  Even with going through the holidays, I still managed to lose.  Which really does tell me that the issue I’ve had was completely my thyroid.  Such hope this does bring…Sorry…had to Yoda for a second.

New Years has came and everyone is abuzz with their resolutions.  We don’t do them in our house.  I feel like they set you up for failure.  They make you focus too much on what you don’t like about yourself or your life, which isn’t productive. Now, setting goals is another matter.  We haven’t sat down yet and set our family goals, but I have set my personal ones.

  1. Get back on track with walking
  2. Register & complete a 5K
  3. Buckle down and learn Korean (not just sporadic words)
  4. Plant my garden and actually tend to it
  5. Try to put up/can 50% of our food supply
  6. Read the Bible completely through
  7. Read more books
  8. Focus on getting our side business off the ground
  9. Prioritize my time better

I think that’s enough to get me started.  Granted, I have ones that require the help of the hubs, so we’ll just categorize those as family goals.  Anyway you look at it, it’s going to be a great year.

I have already printed my new forms for my Household Notebook and Budget Binder.  I’m working on getting that put back together and organized.  This year though, I am going to get to make a new binder for all the projects for the house we are going/wanting to be working on.  We have a lot of change that will be happening over the next couple of years that will require a lot of planning and budgeting.  One huge thing is Destiny will be graduating this year…not sure if it will be in May or December, but it will be happening.  It’s crazy to think about, but I love new seasons!

So, what are the goals that you have set for this year?  I would love to hear about them!  Be Blessed!  =)



My Journey To Health…Weekly Update 14 &15 (I’m On The Mend)

I know, I know.  I didn’t post last week.  I promise I have a valid reason.  A month ago I developed a cough that progressively got worse.  I’ve just been really sick and I can honestly say, I haven’t been this sick in a LONG time.  Two weeks ago I finally called the doctor.  Come to find out I had a wonderfully established case of bronchitis, pneumonia in my left lung and starting in my right, and sinusitis.  He put me on an antibiotic, breathing treatments, and a steroid (forget weighing in).  After a few days, I wasn’t really getting any better and the cough had gotten worse.  I ended up catching something else too and Thursday night I was hit with chills and a fever and did nothing but cough my head off for the next 3 days (mainly at night).  We’re thinking that Tevis might have brought something home and since I was already weak, I picked it up.  But, I’m finally on the mend (I believe).  I still have a cough, but it’s nothing like it was.  Can’t talk a whole lot cause it triggers it, but I’m hoping that gets better over the next few days.

Anyway, I haven’t even bothered with weighing or measuring and honestly the only workout I have been able to do is cough (which I am counting!)  You use a TON of muscles when you do that and if they are sore, then it’s been a good workout!  At least that’s what I’m claiming.

So I haven’t given up or quit.  Just had a little detour.  Just say a little prayer for me to really kick this.  I missed church for the last 2 weeks and I’m not singing this week either because I can’t even really talk without coughing much less sing.  Even though I have nothing really to report, I still want to leave you with a bit of encouragement,.


Sometimes we get so caught up in what we can see happening or not and we want things to happen fast.  Why do you think that we have all these fad diets and diet pills that can make you look like a bikini model in 2 days?!?  Every day.  Every single day we are getting better.  Every step is one step closer.  Just keep striving.  You’ll get there.  Even with the little detours on the path.  =)  Be Blessed!

My Journey To Health…Week 13 Update (He’s Our Daddy!)

Last week I was busy having a pity party for myself.  Figured out that the UGH feeling was coming from me incorporating sweet tea back into my diet.  I don’t drink it regularly and it’s always a half-cut, but when I am out running errands and…well you know how Walmart makes you thirsty.  Anyway, I’ve said it before.  I CAN’T HAVE SUGAR.  Even if I cut down on it.  That eliminates 99.99999% of all food on the market (not including fresh veg and fruits).  No wonder people are always sick.  Sugar is legal crack!  Keep them addicted, keep getting their money.  Stop poisoning our people!  *Jumps off soapbox*

Anyway, I was saying how I felt trapped by not being able to sway even the slightest amount from eating better.  I had a good friend who reminded me that I need to be reminding myself of “who my daddy was” when I feel trapped.  She sent me this video:

I remember back when I started this I had said that the majority of this journey was going to be mental.  I am at the mental part.  The beginning was adrenalin.  Now is where the rubber hits the road. Great things never come from comfort zones!  Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results.  To have permanent change, I must have REAL change.  Not just physically, but mentally.  Ephesians 4:23 says, Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.

I’m a thinker and I tend to mull things over and over and over and over and…well, you get the point.  I lose sleep over my brain. Mentally is exactly where satan is going to attack me.  It reminds me of when Professor Snape is training Harry Potter to be strong mentally so that Voldermort can’t get into his thoughts.  “Control your emotions.  Descipline your mind.”  I’m including that scene in case you want to watch.

I need a strong mind.  I need to keep going but not on my strength alone.  I have to say that I think I’ve been trying to do a lot of this on my own.  Everyday I need to get up and put on a conjoined twin jacket and take another step.  I can’t successfully go where God isn’t. So often it isn’t he that has moved but I.  My road is extremely winding and hilly.  I can see Him walking on the easier path and I, like an ADD child, just going “oh look a butterfly!” or “Oh look a squirrel” and running off.  And all the while he is still just walking straight, yet he slows his pace to be able to be exactly where he needs to be when I return onto the His path.  We are never really adults.  We are just bigger kids.  Still learning.  Still exploring.  Still thinking that we know it all.  When in reality, we are still just His children whom he is trying to protect and guide and to train up for the battle ahead.

So, I say all that to really say this.  Yes, I had a bad week.  Yes, I have had a few bad weeks.  I can’t let that be the end all.  In reality all it is is just an ADD moment on my path.  But it is in those moments that Satan can (and will) jump into your head and fill it with all kinds of junk and play with your emotions and torment you with you fears.  We have to block him.  We have to fill our minds with the truths of God and what He says we are.  We have to walk in the truth of WHO HE IS!  That He’s our daddy!  And so often we really don’t know who He is because we haven’t taken the time to REALLY know Him.  He needs to become our conjoined twin.  Why do we make that so hard?  Stop paying attention to the shiny object that’s being dangled in front of you as a distraction and start paying attention to the rock that you are.  Take the time to let God polish and shine and tenderly care for it and you will turn into a true gem.  =)  Be Blessed!

PS- I know I was just all over the map there, but I need to tell you my updates.  I did lose poundage but no inches.  So, it’s still a win.  So I am down 43 lbs since the end of July.  =)

New Starting Weight: 342

Est. Heaviest: 365

Current Weight: 322

Total inches lost: 34

My Journey To Health…Week 12 Update (Consistent? Me? Naw!)

I’m sure you have figured out by now that I stink at being consistent.  Not with everything, but definitely when it comes to writing.  I’ve been in a slump.  I should have never taken vacation.  It’s very easy for me to get bored and thrown off track.  I have had many temper tantrums this week.  Mainly “I don’t want to!” or “I quit!” or “This is too hard!”.  I haven’t been feeling up to par.  Just really sluggish and not able to get myself moving.  Even when I workout, my body never seems to loosen up.  It has actually been getting more stiff as I go through my workout.  I don’t understand it.  Anyway, it’s even affecting my drive to write.  Maybe because I don’t have anything great to write about and I don’t feel like I’m holding up my end of the bargain.


So, I didn’t weigh this week and I haven’t measured.  To be honest, I was afraid to.  I really am afraid of the setback.  Especially with knowing how I’m feeling.  You know, like when you can “FEEL” your fat and the excess weight?  That’s what it is.  I can fee how heavy I am.  UGH!  And I have only walked one day this week so far.  I’ve just been wanting to do stuff at home like yoga and Pilates.  It’s relaxing to me and walking long distance, lately, has been grueling for some reason.  What is going on with me?

Yesterday, instead of walking, I helped Tevis in the yard.  I chopped up a couple of stumps with an ax and then trimmed hedges.  Btw, the ax probably wasn’t a good idea for my back, but it was a great workout.  I love swinging an ax.  I love the feel of the weigh just flowing through the entire swing.  It’s like a wave that just washes over you from the onset of the swing to the follow through to the connecting of the swing.  Like watching a pendulum depend upon its own weight to sway and being able to feel it’s weighted freedom.  I just love that.  But, there is only so much that I can chop up in the yard.

Anyway, I have to get over this sluggish slump.  Why?  I have decided to give myself an insane (for me) challenge.  Connie and I (and whoever else wants to join us) are going to do a 5k run/walk in the spring.  I have no idea why I’m so driven to do that, but I want to be able to say I’ve done one.  I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would ever do something like that.  I know 5k isn’t that far, but it’s a start.  I’m pretty sure that at some point I will say “What have I gotten myself into!?!”  Then turn to Connie and ask “Why didn’t you stop me!?!”  I don’t like walking when there are people at the track.  This will be me having to walk in front a gagillion magillion tragillon people!  That’s ALOT OF PEOPLE (but 1 less than a zagillion.  That would really be too much!)  But, that’s my goal.  We’ll see how that turns out.  Then who knows what will happen next.

So, who has some tip or something to help me out here?  I’ve got to get over this sluggishness.  I want to feel good again instead of having to constantly force myself to get things done.  I would be most grateful.  Hope you week is going well.  =)  Be Blessed!

My Journey To Health…Week 11 Update (I’M BACK!)

I’m back!  We had a great week off.  We had friends from Wisconsin come and visit.  It was great seeing them.  We hadn’t seen them since we moved to TN almost 3 years ago.  It was a whirlwind visit.  We spent a day in Gatlinburg and it’s always great to go there because I have so many fond memories of vacationing and camping there.  The beauty is absolutely breathtaking.  Hunter played in the creeks (as did Tevis) and Destiny wandered around taking pictures.  It was nice to just spend time together with our friends.


The vacation continued with work.  Tevis works a regular fulltime job outside of his position at the church, so it doesn’t leave a lot of time for bigger projects…like destroying the yard.  I mean, isn’t that everyones idea of a great vacation?  When we bought the house, it had been in an estate for a few years.  It needs updating inside and out.  So, we took the time last week to pull out everything that we didn’t want in it.  Now, we have a clean(ish) slate to start planting and landscaping it the way we would like.  We would like to build a patio or deck on the front just off the front stoop, but first the bushes HAD to go.  It was nice to finally be able to get something done that was substantial.


Anyway, I didn’t get a lot of walking in last week.  I didn’t walk at all with the girls.  I got to walk last night for a little.  My back is WAY out of alignment and I have a couple fixated discs.  It hurts to stand for longer than 10 minutes or it feels like gravity is 4x what it normally is.  Needless to say, my body is rebelling against me and screaming since I made it lose so much weight so fast.  So, getting a realignment is a must if I plan on keeping my “vehicle” on the road.

Something awesome that happened is that even though I was on vacation (and behaved badly), I DIDN’T GAIN ANY WEIGHT!!!!!!  That is a HUGE score!  Normally I can look at water and put on ten pounds.  That’s really not a joke.  It’s actually a big fear of mine because that has always been the pattern.  I stray from what becomes normal (or have a cheat day), I would literally weigh in anywhere from 5 to 10 lbs heavier.  It didn’t happen this week.  I did gain a couple of inches but I don’t know if that is because I measured in a hurry and might not have measured in my normal spots.  It doesn’t matter.  I still lost weight!  I ended up losing another 6lbs.  WOOHOO!!!

New Starting Weight: 342

Est. Heaviest: 365

Current Weight: 330

Total inches lost: 34

This week my baby sister will be in.  She is going to go and see my doctor since she has been such a huge help for me.  Ruthie is cut from the same cloth as I, so we have similar issues.  I get the opportunity to walk with her this week and I can’t wait!  Have a great week yall!  =)  Be Blessed!

My Journey To Health….Week 9 Update

wpid-df415da7c8ec5997239fd48a4db200c1.jpgYesterday I had a friend call and asked if I would go walking with her.  She likes to walk on the Greenbelt.  It’s a beautiful path that we have here in TN that goes on forever.  I had never been before and was excited to have a new place to walk that is absolutely beautiful.  We met at the Exchange Place.  Never seen that either, but I WILL be going back.  It has a bunch of old piece-on-piece cabins.  We love those!  Anyway, I hadn’t really walked in a couple of weeks.  I haven’t been feeling up to par and have been hurting a lot in my joints.  My body is fighting itself and the junk that we have discovered is really built up.  Flushing toxins out of your body is hard, but will be oh so worth it once it’s done.

We met up and we started down this path.  It was gorgeous.  Every step was wonderful.  It was a nice pace and I felt great!  We were just chatting away and then I noticed that we had been going downhill for quite a bit.  And it kept going.  Then I remembered that downhill is great…until you have to come back up!  It finally bottomed out and started going uphill.  You mean I have to do this TWICE?!?  WHERE IN THE WORLD DID SHE BRING ME!?!  I was NOT prepared for this!  I didn’t even bring survival gear!  I didn’t notify anyone of my coordinates.  It felt like when I was hiking to Abrams Falls in the Smokies and I was crying to Tevis that rescue choppers wouldn’t even be able to find me and I would have to die there.

Then, I saw something coming at me in the distance.  It was approaching at a rapid pace.  Oh no!  We had crazy people on the trail.  I’m telling you they were CRAZY!  They scared me.  Momentarily, I feared for my life (“If I don’t make eye contact, maybe they’ll go away”).  What were they, you may ask?  Runners.  They were RUNNING!  RUNNING!  Why in the world would you run these inclines?!?  Have you lost your mind?  Do you enjoy pain?!?  Please, don’t ask me to do that.  Please, I can barely breathe and walk at the same time.  Just ignore the tortoise (btw, spoilers.  I win).

We turned around and were heading back.  The hill in the beginning was insane.  By the time we were halfway up it, my legs were jello and shaking.  We finished with 1.29 miles and I think I should get extra credit for those inclines, not just my steps!  I will tell you this.  I CAN’T WAIT TO DO IT AGAIN!  Even though I seriously considered crawling the rest of the way, I LOVED IT!  We are going back in 2 weeks when she gets back in town.  I was later informed that section was the hardest part of the trail.  Of course it was.  I never make anything easy on myself.  Here’s a screenshot of my walk.  To some it may not be much, but it kicked my butt!


The impossible became possible.  There was no way I could have done that 2 months ago.  I have come a long way.  Even though when I look ahead I see nothing but a mountain still, when I look back, I see that where I was is so much further away.  And as of Monday, even though I didn’t lose anything this week, I still lost.  I lost 3.25 inches.  And I fit into a new shirt that was clinging to me when we bought it 2 weeks ago.


New Starting Weight: 342

Est. Heaviest: 365

Current Weight: 336

Total inches lost: 36

So, keep going.  Every step, no matter how small, is another step.  It will get you there eventually.  Just NEVER GIVE UP!

=) Be Blessed!

My Journey To Healthy…Week 8 Update


Retraining your thinking patterns can be tough.  How you think about food, exercise and…yourself.  Have you seen the Dove video about our perceptions of ourselves vs. the way others see us?  If not, give it a watch.

Saturday I had my hair dyed.  I have been graying since I was 20.  The whole front part of my head is gray now, if I was to let it grow completely out.  I hadn’t had my roots redone for a couple of months, so I had a good amount of gray showing.  I don’t really care about my age.  It never has bothered me.  I’ve always found it humorous.   I have been mistaken as Tevis’s mother before.  Twice, as a matter of fact.  And he was thought to be Destiny’s brother.  No, that’s her father.  He has always looked extremely young.  So, i just tell them I’m a cougar..HA!  The look on their faces is always priceless.  The other day, I had someone ask me a question that just stayed in my mind.  They said, “You’re in your mid-40’s, right?”  No.  No, I’m not.  I’m 36.  For some reason, it bothered me when it never had before.  It stirred up all these insecurities in me.

Anyway, after that conversation, I had my gray covered with a totally different color.  I’ll show you once we get all the red stripped out and it’s completely finished.  Sunday, I wore my new jeans, a cami (one I dug back out of the give away bag), a cover shirt and my NEW hair.  I walked in for rehearsal.  A few double takes had to be done because they didn’t recognize who I was.  At that point, I knew this was going to be a mentally exhausting morning.

You see, I struggle with compliments.  I struggle with positive attention.  I struggle with believing the compliments that people give me.  I struggle with seeing myself the ways others see me.  In all honesty, it’s because I don’t see or believe the way God sees me.  Why is that so hard?  Ephesians 4:23-24 says, Instead, renew the thinking in your mind by the Spirit and clothe yourself with the new person created according to God’s image in justice and true holiness.  He’s very clear.  We are a new person in Christ.  We are to cast off the old thinking that we have.  We were created in His image.  He sees our beauty, scars and all.  So, we need to, too.  We can’t really change how we are if we don’t change how we think.  Like it said in the Dove video…You are more beautiful than you think.  Change that.  I.  I am.  I am more beautiful.  I am more beautiful than I think.  Shorten that.  I am beautiful.  Try that on.  Wear that.  Let it sink in.  Beauty isn’t necessarily about a number.  It’s about a state of mind.  I think, therefore I am.  You are more beautiful that you think.  =)  Be Blessed!

PS:  I know I just said it wasn’t about a number (and it really isn’t), but my number needs to be lower for health reasons.  I’ll update you real quick.  I had to weigh early this week, so I’m not reporting a huge loss.  I lost 1 lb. but I lost 3.25 inches.  There’s an upside to everything.  I have manged to lose 30 lbs in 2 months.  That’s CRAZINESS!!!!  And the other doctors all these years kept telling me nothing was wrong with my thyroid…HA!

New Starting Weight: 342

Est. Heaviest: 365

Current Weight: 336

Total inches lost: 32.75