Down The Path We Go…Again

I started a daily devotional with a friend, mainly to help keep me accountable since I am terrible at doing something consistently.  We are following the S.O.A.P method.  Scripture, Observation, Application, Prayer.  We journal those four parts.  The first day, the verse of scripture that jumped out at me the most was Luke 22:61.  Mainly the first sentence.  It has continued to really stay at the forefront of my thoughts for the past week.  I felt like I needed to get more of what it was saying to me written down on here.

Luke 22:61(NLT) says, At that moment the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Suddenly, the Lord’s words flashed through Peter’s mind: “Before the rooster crows tomorrow morning, you will deny three times that you even know me.”

That part leaped from the pages.  Why?  I find myself falling into the pattern of getting easily distracted by other things when my walk with God and everything seems to be going good.  VERY easily.  To the point where the end of the day will come and I haven’t read my Bible, done my devotional or even prayed.  I will tell myself, “Self, you must do better tomorrow!”  Self doesn’t always listen though and then everything starts to fall apart because I have made other things a priority.  Then I fall into the pit of despair where I berate myself for not being “an awesome Christian” and I don’t want to even try anymore.  It’s more or less a pity party with me being the only attendee.

But, this passage seemed to jump out at me because the image that went through my head was it was I that Jesus was turning to look at.  Not because of me denying Him but to see where I was.  For how long has He been constantly checking over His shoulder to see if I was still following him?  How many times have I been following Him and then got distracted by something on the path?  The bigger question for me is, when am I going to learn to not pay attention to the little things glistening along the road and pay more attention to the shining Light in front of me who is trying to take me to places that pale in comparison?  By getting distracted, other things that happen (because I have broken my focus) seem to take a life of their own and either get blown out of proportion or they lead to a bigger mess to clean up and fix.  Unhealthy things begin to creep in…like jealousy, bitterness, anger, frustration, discontentment.  With those things taking up more space in my mind and spirit, it leaves less and less room for peace and He who I was focused on in the first place.  My countenance changes.  My light (that we are told to shine bright for Him), dims.

This all goes hand in hand with my main goal for the year of bringing balance into our home.  To get that balance though, I first have to make sure that God is guiding our methods for doing so.  I need to identify the things that so easily distract me and take note.  When I see those things coming up on the path, I need to be more mindful to ignore them and press in more to He who I’m following.  So, let’s start down this path again.  Failure only exists when you stop trying.  Come on, Lord.  Forgive me for breaking my gaze and let’s do this again.  =)  Be Blessed!


A New Year With New Adventures

Ahh, the freshness of a new year.  Don’t you just love it?  It’s like the new car smell or that of a newly cleaned house, ready to settle into.  I love the beginning of the year.  I start getting the itching early in December when it dawns on me that new seed catalogs should come rolling in soon.  Oh how I love that!  Yet, I hold off (as best I can) until New Year’s Day to crack those beautiful catalogs open, pen and marker in hand, ready to circle and write all through it…and dream.  THAT is what really sets my gears turning for the upcoming year.

I don’t do resolutions.  I despise them.  To me, the emphasis put on them puts extra pressure on yourself and they set you up for failure.  Then you beat yourself up afterwards when you don’t do a complete 180 within a short period of time or you don’t stick to it.  If you have had a habit for a long period of time, it’s not going to change overnight.  We like to set personal and family goals.  We set short term (6 months to a year) and long term goals (1 year +).  Do we always achieve them?  HA!  No.  But, that’s okay.  It was something that we set for ourselves and strived for.  So then, we give ourselves a little more time or adjust it accordingly.

We haven’t been able to sit down yet and go over our goals for this year.  But, for me, I know what I’m going to strive for.  So, what do I want to do?

1) Yes, get healthy is on my list.  My sister’s wedding is in May.  Besides that, I need to get healthy for me and break some very bad habits.  I will not set a target weight or anything like that.  My goal is just to make better eating choices.

2)  Work hard (this year) at my garden.  I want to really focus on having plenty of healthy foods to choose from and to put up for winter for my family.

3) Start playing piano again.  Also, learn to read cord sheets so I can help Tevis when he needs it.

4) I would like to write more.  I haven’t been very consistent at all with posting.  I would like to find a rhythm with it and stick to it.

What would I like to do with my family:

1) Do a regular Bible study with Destiny.  Just she and I.

2) Have regular date nights with Tevis.

3) Go camping a few times this year.

4) Have more Nerf battles with Hunter.

5) Do a Bible study with Hunter.  Just he and I.

6) Find balance and healthy consistency within our craziness.

Now, will these all be for this year?  No.  Some will take more time than others.  Remember when I said if the habit has been for a long time, it will take awhile to change it?  Some of these fall under that category.  Time management ISN’T one of my strong points.  That’s okay though.  It’s on my list under finding balance.

Please check in with me and see how I’m doing.  Hold me accountable.  I love accountability.  Yes, I will throw a fit when you are first holding me to it, but I really do love it.  So, what are some of your goals that you and your family have?  I would love to hear.  =)  Be Blessed!